Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Maulidur Rasul 2008 - 20-03-2008

Maulidur rasul tahun ini jatuh pada hari khamis,jadi bagi org terengganu dapat cuti panjang(3 hari).For me is the time to take a reflection of my life....the past and the future.Sebagai seorang islam kita dituntut menjadi seorang islam yang baik,patuh kepada ajaran ugama dan tindak tanduk mesti mencerminkan keislaman iaitu cantik,indah, bersih dan lain lain yang di tuntut dalam islam.

So for me,it is important to seriously review the past as to proceed and face the future which is so challenging in view of the rapidly changing world.As a person who has past 55 yrs of age,the future seem so uncertain if we are not adequately prepare ourselve with worldly and spiritual knowledge.At time i feel hopeless,confuse,angry at oneself of some of the decision that were made,feeling lonely and yearn for love from someone who can understand the frustration that im going through.Well, the world is not suppose to be a lonely place and yet you are lonely and this a biggest challenge im facing.......strange to some people this is what im facing now.When i told some friends that im lonely they laugh at me considering that i have everything the family could ask for......happy family,kids are good,and enjoying a middle class lifestyle....but the fact remain im lonely and looking deep into myself for answer.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

After 55 years of living....

setelah hidup melepasi 55 tahun ku mendapati life aku ni masih banyak lagi masaalah yang perlu ku atasi.Aku terima hakikat ni dan sedar bahawa banyak perkara yang silap dan keputusan yang aku buat adalah salah dan mengikut perasan ku tanpa mengk
aji terlebih dahulu.Aku terima hakikat ini dengan jujur dan akan membuat correction to steer clear all or if not some of it in order to proceed in living the life i dream off.

Some of the mistake I made are as follows:
1.some of the decision that i made do not take into consideration of the financial situation whether i can afford it or not.....I learn from it but the risk taker element in me make me to take the risk....result from it some positive, some painful,stressful and worrying and at time feeling like running away,selling everything and living a simple life which is easier say than done.
2.Credit card usage.....bleeding me and fighting hard to settle and so far manage to clear one credit card and hopefully to clear all this year(2008).
3.Business decisions is the toughest and most diffuclt to make especially ur a free market businessman in this very competitive business in oil& gas industries.On top of that with little knowledge on business management,strategic thinking,creativity and financial knowledge making it more tough.So one has to keep learning and keeping in touch with the current business development so some bad business decision were made and at time expensive too.....making mistake and taking risk are essential component in life or in business but make sure that any decision make is follow by taking and cosidering all matters.
4.Failing to consult people with experience before taking a decision on matter that u have little knowledge or experience also causing u making a bad decision.
5.Too much bank loan is also bad for business if u cannot monitor the expenses and control the cashflow.
6.Complacent and not monitoring the running of the company.
7.The company does not have clear direction and overtrade and should know their core business.
8.On the personal side im not taking seriously the consequences of my action thinking that things will goes according to the law of nature.....well i need to be more serious in the future.So far im taking action to prevent further complication and be more serious in improving the situation.

Those are some of the mistakes that i made and realising how painful are the consequences and causing sleepless nightmare.Taking all this positively and on the way to correct the situation.